I started to write this post on Sunday….day 16, but couldn’t get much down on the paper. Then I looked at it on Monday. I looked at it again on Tuesday. I didn’t even open it on Wednesday. My intent was to keep the blog updated on my juice fasting process, and meanwhile days and days were going by. I was hesitant to say that I felt shitty, so I didn’t want to say anything at all.
So, what does shitty feel like? Well, I was back to napping in the afternoon. It was a little hard to get out of bed. Running was going ok, once I got myself out there. But what was really going on was I felt sad. I couldn’t quite put my finger on what I was sad about, but old stuff was flooding in to the tune of, I’m not good enough. Crap!—not really what I was expecting on week three. I thought it would be smooth sailing from this point on.
I just kept thinking, what is going on? Why am I suddenly feeling like this? What has triggered it? Being a little dense it didn’t occur to me that maybe it was because I am juice fasting…..which cleans out toxins. What is more toxic than old emotional junk?!?
I didn’t figure this out on my own. I went down to the Revitalive Café (organic vegan juice bar and café here in Newburyport) with my sister in law who is also juicing and was having similar feelings. She asked the question and the answer was that feeling sad is very common at this stage in a fast or cleanse. Yes, we need to purge the emotional stuff as well!
As I said, I don’t even know exactly what I was feeling sad about. It was like a little bit of everything rolled into one. That may sound discouraging, but actually it was encouraging! I have done a lot of work on many emotional issues over the years and I know I have cleaned up a lot of stuff. It was almost like I was wiping away the residue of those things—just feeling them, noting them, and letting them leave my body with the other toxic debris. Goodbye old friends—time for you to go for good.
Ok, down to the nitty gritty. I have not eaten anything in 21 days. This juice fasting thing is still blowing my mind. I know I am ingesting a bunch of juice, but I have nothing in my stomach to speak of except a couple of specks of pulp that might sneak its way into the glass. And I am not hungry. Only as I have said if I go too long between juices do I get hungry. Other than that there is a kind of empty feeling, but it is not hunger—which is what blows my mind.
I have stuck to my original regime of juicing four times a day, having about 16 ounces at a time. I have been venturing out to get juice a bit this week, mostly because I am getting a little tired of the juicing process since I have been doing it so often. As it is going out for a meal, it is a treat to have someone else make a juice for me! I think my latest simple evening combo has become my favorite—grape tomatoes, romaine, cilantro and chives. Serve over ice or room temp—fantastic!
Somewhat surprisingly, this has not been a struggle. It just became what is. And it has shown me that I am more adaptable than I thought. This leads me to believe that we are all more adaptable than we think. So what changes do you want to make in your life? It might not be as hard as you think!