Well I guess Molly got the vibe from my last post and decided it was time to take her exit from this stage. She wasn’t dramatic about it. Just let me know with some signs that were clear enough, without her going into distress, that it was time to go to the vet. We all seemed to agree that she was ready, so she got the assist to exit. My Molly—such a good girl.
I felt blessed with grace in those few hours before our appointment at the vet. As I talked about last time (Hell Is What You Make Of It) I was able to stay in a space of calm, thinking about how much better it will be for her to not be sick any more—to be out of this ailing body. She was restless but finally settled down on a pillow and slept for awhile and I was able to calmly sit with her and give her Reiki and just enjoy how beautiful and sweet she is, and what a trooper she has been hanging on all this time. It was lovely. Then I was easily able to get her into her carrier to go.
I can’t say it was as easy once I got to the vet, but I held it together as much as I could. What I am so grateful for is that I was able to stay calm and at peace while we had our final time together at home. If I had been upset and panicked she would have absolutely picked up on that and probably hid. It could have been a struggle getting her out and into the carrier. Instead it was a beautiful time together.
This experience has reinforced what my meditation teacher speaks of frequently—the mindful moment. No matter what is going on, if you stay present with it, it makes all the difference in the world. I was present with Molly—my mind didn’t really wander about a lot, on to things such as what would happen at the vet, or how was I going to handle this. It just stayed focused on Molly and me sitting there together and it held that space.
So, my message here is just another reminder to be mindful. I’ve talked about mindful eating, but everything you do is an invitation to be mindful. To pay attention to what is, right now. And when you do that your mind quiets down—it stops running ahead to the next thing. Then you can find peace washing the dishes or raking the leaves. Any moments of peace we can catch are really good moments. They start to add up—imagine that.